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worthallthis ([personal profile] worthallthis) wrote2019-08-30 01:37 pm
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IC Inbox: In the Night

[There is no message for the voice inbox. Just a beep.]
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (fifty three)

[personal profile] policier 2019-11-09 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
( It's a sensible answer. Javert seems pleased by it, even though it is a little difficult to tell, what with how subdued his expressions are. Then, since he can no longer ignore the elephant in the room, he admits casually, )

Your friend seems adamant that it is. He was also adamant that he would not leave without you.

( There's no accusation or anger in his words. He's just delivering the facts, and watching the other man's expression as he does so. )
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (forty seven)

[personal profile] policier 2019-11-10 08:24 pm (UTC)(link)
That is the impression I got of him as well.

( He answers with a scoff. Perhaps that is why Javert doesn't have a high of an opinion of him. He doesn't think things through, nor does he seem particularly remorseful about what he has done. The inspector frowns as he thinks about it, grumbling, )

If it's possible for him to leave here on his own, I wish he would do so soon. We don't have time to clean up his messes.

( He looks as if he wants to say more, but he bites it back. Clenching his jaw, instead, he says, )

I told him if he doesn't try to steal the ferry again, I will release you from your orders. You may go with him, if you wish, or you may stay here. It makes little difference to me.
Edited 2019-11-10 20:25 (UTC)
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (thirty six)

[personal profile] policier 2019-11-10 09:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I will have to find a new instructor, of course, and someone who will be as diligent as you on patrols. But it is not an insurmountable task.

( It may sound cold, but that's just how Javert is. He's never placed much reliance on others, whether they be soldiers or acquaintances. He's used to doing things on his own. He understands the other man's difficulty, though, on making this decision, and perhaps that is why he answers softly, his voice steady and eyes unwavering. )

You are on no obligation to stay. That is all I meant by it. Are you truly so afraid to think for yourself?
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (fifty two)

[personal profile] policier 2019-11-13 10:14 pm (UTC)(link)
And who do you think would do such a thing here?

( Not his superiors, certainly. Javert understands the other man's hesitance, though. It's a tendency, and like all tendencies, it's hard to break. Javert, himself, is having a difficult time following his conscience, and making decisions based on what is right, not what the law demands. )
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (fifty four)

[personal profile] policier 2019-11-14 12:11 am (UTC)(link)
( It comes easily to him because he's used to doling out orders, managing subordinates, and behaving in a near-militaristic way. He's assumed the role without protest, and he will not to do so here. But he does, at least, want to be clear about one thing. )

I'm not going to punish you for thinking. I should hope the others would not either.

( And since Crowley made mention of it earlier, Javert can't help but ask, )

Does it please you to take orders from me?
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (forty seven)

[personal profile] policier 2019-11-23 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
So you would not wish for me to stop?

( That is all he wants to know. Perhaps it was wrong to assume that he might have an opinion about it, but it hardly matters. )
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (twenty three)

[personal profile] policier 2019-11-26 03:21 am (UTC)(link)
( Javert doesn't deny it. Perhaps at one point, he would not have cared, whether the Soldier would want him to receive instructions or not. But now? He can't help but be conscious of it, and it feels him with relief to know that he was right. Relief, and a bit of surprise. )

You truly believe so?

( Perhaps that is just a testament to the other handlers he's had. Still, he can't help but feel something swell up in his chest, an emotion he cannot place. He shifts awkwardly. )

I know what it is like to feel lost. To submit to an authority because it is familiar. If it will bring you comfort, if it will help you, then I will do what I can.
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (twenty)

[personal profile] policier 2019-12-07 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
( Javert looks away, overwhelmed. It isn't just him that he's helping. By doing this, he's also helping himself. He's never felt empathy for anyone before, and certainly not for anyone who has done as many dishonorable things as the Soldier has. Javert would not have thought twice about harming him, before — but he is not that man, anymore.

He still doesn't know how to feel about that. )


I believe that it all, then. ( He says, his voice gruff and authoritative. Collecting himself, he looks up at the other man and asks, ) Unless there is something you wish to ask of me?
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (thirty two)

[personal profile] policier 2019-12-13 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
( It's not the sort of question he was expecting. In truth, it's not even one that he has ever asked of himself. Does he miss an authority figure, or simply the matter of having an authority to submit to? Rosalind had asked if Javert missed Valjean, and he is just as crippled by his answer now as he was then. Having such feelings is intolerable. He sighs, )

If there is anything that I miss, it is my work. ( That, at least, is something he can admit to. ) Though I do not know if I could ever return to it, were it possible for us to go home.

( It's the most open and human he's ever been with the Soldier. There's no confidence in his posture, no air of authority. Only a broken man, shameful of what he's done. )
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (thirty six)

[personal profile] policier 2019-12-18 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
( He's right about their being different sorts of programming. Javert's may not have been brainwashed into him like the Soldier, but that doesn't mean it was any less harmful. After a moment of silent consideration, and with some difficulty, he admits, )

I did, through my own foolish beliefs.

( That black and white morality that came as a product of his upbringing. It's still hard for him to live without it, though he is trying. )

I never thought it possible for others to change. No, not I. I believed my work to be righteous, and so I never showed mercy to criminals. Surely I would not have been kind to you, either, had I felt that way when we met.
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (forty four)

[personal profile] policier 2019-12-26 11:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I was shown kindness. ( He answers solemnly, and with great difficulty. ) By a man that ought not have given it to me.

( Not just any man, but a man Javert had once admired, then scorned, and now, admires again. It irritates him beyond comprehension, and both emotions fill his tone in equal measure as he continues, )

I pursued him. For seventeen years, I filled his life with fear. When he was given the chance to end mine, he chose instead to save it. Why? Because he is a good man. He was not the villain that I thought he was. Nineteen years he spent in the bagne, and upon his release, he stole. Not just the once, but twice. In spite of this, he became a respectable businessman, a mayor. He was my superior, for a time, and I his chief of police. When I found out who he truly was, what he had done, I treated him horribly.

( He sent a girl to an early grave and yet still, Valjean had thought him worthy of mercy! He doesn't understand, and he doesn't know if he ever will. )

He is kind to a fault. For many years, I thought that kindness to be a farce, a tool of deception. So much the fool I was. He is more of a saint than he is man, though I condemned him all the same, and all because he broke the law.
policier: 𝓭𝓷𝓽 (thirty)

[personal profile] policier 2019-12-27 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
( He'd be relieved to know that he's not the only one baffled by it. When the Soldier asks for his name, Javert falls silent a moment. If this were Paris, he would not dare utter the name. Valjean was dead, as far as the rest of the world knew, and Javert would not dare bring danger to his doorstep when he already decided to let him go. He answers softly, though, almost as if speaking a secret. )

His alias is Fauchelevent. Though his true name is Jean Valjean.

( He spreads his hands out, palms out. )

Now you know. It is possible for men to change, just as surely as he and I did.

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