[Okay. But then again, growing up means figuring out how much of the crap happening was so not okay on any level and sure, nothing in Quentin's life was ever as bad as being mind-controlled in to killing people. But that was probably only because Alice as a Niffin never seemed to want to kill people. Just magical being and most days, Quentin tries to just not think about how many she killed while using his body.
Or what else she might have done while wearing his skin like a cheap suit.
He trades one card, and places the new hand face up on the pew.
Three of a kind. All nines.]
Nothing like dying to put everything in to perspective?
[Beats Soldat's shit hand of one pair of Jacks, easy. They push the pile of peanuts Quentin's way.]
I guess. Being free and not getting brain-fried every other day probably did more than dying did.
[They discard both hands and deal out new ones. This is kind of nice, the motions are familiar and comfortable, like they've done this so many times it's just ingrained.]
Did dying put things into perspective for you, too?
[As he picks up the new cards, discarding three before he pushes a handful of peanuts in to the middle.]
It-- uh, yeah? Yes, maybe. At least until I woke up on the ferry and found out that I wasn't done with saving the world after all. And I really, really wanted to not do that anymore.
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It's okay.
[Well, it's not okay, but Soldat is never really sure what to say to apologies like that.]
I'm. Getting better, or so people tell me.
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[Okay. But then again, growing up means figuring out how much of the crap happening was so not okay on any level and sure, nothing in Quentin's life was ever as bad as being mind-controlled in to killing people. But that was probably only because Alice as a Niffin never seemed to want to kill people. Just magical being and most days, Quentin tries to just not think about how many she killed while using his body.
Or what else she might have done while wearing his skin like a cheap suit.
He trades one card, and places the new hand face up on the pew.
Three of a kind. All nines.]
Nothing like dying to put everything in to perspective?
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I guess. Being free and not getting brain-fried every other day probably did more than dying did.
[They discard both hands and deal out new ones. This is kind of nice, the motions are familiar and comfortable, like they've done this so many times it's just ingrained.]
Did dying put things into perspective for you, too?
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[As he picks up the new cards, discarding three before he pushes a handful of peanuts in to the middle.]
It-- uh, yeah? Yes, maybe. At least until I woke up on the ferry and found out that I wasn't done with saving the world after all. And I really, really wanted to not do that anymore.
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That's a curious sentiment, though. They have to ask:]
Why don't you? It seems like a good sort of goal. Saving people instead of hurting them.