There's nothing he can do but hold B through it, and Steve both hates that fact and has to be grateful that at least he can do that much. It's not enough, but it's something. Right? It's something.
But it's not enough.
He thinks maybe it's a good thing that all it does take to graduate here is the semblance of being happy. The mask. Because he doesn't think he's going to be actually happy about this entire mess... well. Ever. It's not like he has any love for the Admiral, but he also can't deny that the Barge was home. He'd hated it for so long, but after all those years, it had been the place he belonged, more than the world he'd come out of the ice into.
And it had been home for B, more than it had ever been that for Steve, and he presses his nose into B's hair and doesn't know what to say, except, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm here. I love you."
He can't even promise he won't disappear, he knows that just him alone is not enough, but he is here now, and he loves B, and he wishes he could do better than hold him through this, but by God, he will do at least that.
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But it's not enough.
He thinks maybe it's a good thing that all it does take to graduate here is the semblance of being happy. The mask. Because he doesn't think he's going to be actually happy about this entire mess... well. Ever. It's not like he has any love for the Admiral, but he also can't deny that the Barge was home. He'd hated it for so long, but after all those years, it had been the place he belonged, more than the world he'd come out of the ice into.
And it had been home for B, more than it had ever been that for Steve, and he presses his nose into B's hair and doesn't know what to say, except, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm here. I love you."
He can't even promise he won't disappear, he knows that just him alone is not enough, but he is here now, and he loves B, and he wishes he could do better than hold him through this, but by God, he will do at least that.