Then I'd deal with it. I might not like it, but I can deal with it.

[Just because he's out of practice of hiding every little emotion doesn't mean he can't still do it.

He's not even sure how he'd get better with this. He'd have to. Practice. Like with the library. (Which he's stopped practicing with, since Ellie doesn't want him to have panic attacks.) That seems even more harrowing than the library, though.]